Then at the age of seventeen, though I am not officially seventeen till June, I came into contact with it. The solid and cold reality of the real world, faces of people behind their appearances which at first appear to be much friendlier than they really are. Its a shock to me, I don't expect it to struck so soon. Yet, it did. And I have no way to run away from it.

People there won't treat you the way how our kind and lenient teachers & classmates treat you. Just a simple mistake, you would allow them to give you a glare or even a scolding. They won't give you time to learn slowly, once, thats all. Though, they told you you could ask them questions if you have any, it actually means I will only said it once, its as far as it goes. Ask once more, the dark side will come out of them and swallow you up. It made me feel resigned and suffocated. I miss schooling really much. There, I won't have to come in contact with this cold-hard realistic world.

Miserable. I hope things get better than it already are. Perseverance is what I need... Stay strong.